i hurt you by not giving you another opportunity to hurt me. how does that make me so terrible. when have i ever intentionally hurt you. dont you ever fucking dare tell me i dont have the right to remove the toxic things from my life if they refuse to stop hurting me, dont you fucking dare tell me i dont love you, who are you to tear at my soul and break me down, i poured everything i had into you and you were still empty. you sucked out all the love from my heart and left me empty and numb, why couldnt you love me back, i wanted to feel loved too. you say terrible things about me for leaving but youre the one that pushed me to do it. i never took your love for granted, you never cherished mine, you knew you’d always have it. i tried talking to you but by the way you responded i knew you werent willing to make it work, you got angry with me and shut me down, what did you expect me to do. i am a human being too, when did you forget to treat me like one, it seems like forever now. i never knew of a love that could imprison you and put shackles on your feet, if you loved me i wouldnt need to leave to feel free
you tell me i dont love you, i’m just trying to love me too, why cant you see that, why cant you see past your pain, i am hurting too, you attack me with your words, who are you to tell me i dont love you, i loved you from the start, who are you to tell me that i dont have the right to remove toxicity from my life, i’m trying to readjust my life, i wanted you to be apart of it, i cant even talk to you, you shut me down, who are you to think you are entitled to my love, i never took you for granted, i held you in my heart, i thought you wanted to stay but you pushed your way out by not loving me, i cant entrap you and make you see something you dont, i cant make you love who i am, you twist my words, i cant hear myself think, i cherished every moment with you, you cherished your selfish desires, you were infatuated and lonely, you hurt me over and over, you lied to my face saying it was only one girl, “one drunk mistake,” i waited for the truth, you never caved but she did, you blamed me for getting upset, because of you i felt obligated to apoligize for feeling, why did you bring me so low, you had the audacity to tell me that i put you through so much, when, fucking when did i ever hurt you, when, you tell people about how much i hurt you, and i stay silent because it is you that hurt me, i just wanted to be unchained from your manipulation, why did you have to leave too, you left the second you stopped loving me, you were gone from the start, you stabbed me in the back then asked why i was bleeding
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there is a huge difference between genuinely liking someone and liking the attention they give you and it took me a long time to realise that
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